Live from a houseboat in Oud Zuid

Okay, well despite my anxiety about flying in a plane for 9 1/2 hours, we made it here alive!
Euros are much more colorful than dollars. Right now a dollar is worth 78 cents. Our houseboat rental is the bottom floor and middle floor living room of a much bigger home. It is lovely and the doors from the living room are loovered ( sp??) so that you turn a handle and the top of the door swings out like the long narrow window on Seattle's public buses. Then you turn the handle again and it opens up on all 4 sides but is in a track and slides to the left. Very ingenious and very smooth. I love it. There are odd little greebs ( like ducks) or some similar water birds who are all black except for a beak with a shock of white on a startling red flat bill. Quite odd looking like a little cartoon. They are noisy and a bit demanding. seems they are used to being fed. It is very flat here and none of the buildings (so far) are taller than 10 stories. I like this horizontal leveling. We are in the Oud Zuid, or OLD South section of town to the lower left ( South West) of the center of the city. Jimbo and I are both a bit cranky from lack of sleep and close quarters on the plane. We have taken showers and have decided that rather than sleep, we will go out on the town. We will go to Central Station on a tram and then to the Joordan to visit the Pink Zone and the Homomonument. Yippee! They are right next to the Anne Frank house. I do not know if I can handle that emotionally today but we will see. Well. I will write more later tonight.
Love, Teri

No, I can't get you a prostitute or some Hash!

Yes, I am going to Amsterdam. No, I can't get you a prostitute or some hash!
Almost all of my friends have requested one or both of these items in jest when I have asked them what they want me to bring them back from Amsterdam. Sheesh, Americans have no imagination. I am certain there is more to Amsterdam that drugs, hippies and sex for sale.Some of the things I am bringing back: tulip bulbs, cheese, cigars, erotic photography, magnets, sex toys (if I see something different that I haven't tried yet). Postcards, I need to send over 50.

I want to make this posting short and sweet.
I realized my very lengthy post this morning was way too pedantic/wordy and self-important. When I re-read it I felt a headache coming on.

As a comedic counterpoint I'd like to share what occured when I finally got up from sitting and typing for about 2 1/2 hours (dear god it really did take me that long to research and write those puny little sentences).

I got up from the computer and walked across the room to the bathroom and realized there was something funny about my left pant leg. I am wearing a new pair of jeans that I also wore yesterday. I woke up and put the jeans on and grabbed a shirt and started working on the computer.
So what, you ask, was wrong with my pant leg? I reached in there and pulled out yesterday's underwear. I laughed so hard I almost fell over. So much for Goddesses and Demons, I can't even sort out my own pant legs!

Have a crazy chaotic human day! I'll write you Thursday from Amsterdam!

words of the day "Apotheosis" & "Daimon"

Well, well, my dearies, what have we here? ( said in the tone of the Wicked Witch of the West from Wizard of Oz).

I am packed and ready to go to Amsterdam. I have miraculously made time to do nothing but answer email and write blogs for the next 3 hours. I had an amazing weekend attending the Landmark Wisdom Course 5th weekend. I am about to repeat that weekend with the European "Landmarkians" in Amsterdam. While the course here is mostly full of people from Vancouver BC, Portland and Seattle. The European course is full of well, uhm, Europeans. Silly, I know it is one of those peculiarly American handicaps that I rarely think about world geography. How small Europe is geographically. I mean what if every state in the USA had it's own language and it's own government ( well states do ya' know...). What I mean is I will get to meet a great many people from a wide diversity of countries by going to a country that is barely larger than the geography of Seattle by itself. Yippee!

I hope to adequately express some of what I learned this past weekend here and my struggle for self acceptance.
I want to explain the title of this blog entry:

"Apotheosis": 1) deification 2) exaltation as of a person or ideal. Basically, Apotheosis refers to the act of turning a person or ideal into a god.

I had a lot of exquisite conversations this weekend. Many of the conversations involved people praising and complimenting me. I struggled with being able to take in the compliments and be present to my impact on others. I struggled against self demeaning thoughts and unwillingness to recognize my greatness. I wondered if people were actually seeing me or projecting some grandeur onto me that was not inherently there.
The compliments about my hair and my appearance were paradoxically the most welcome and the most feared. I did get a new haircut. I have been working out doing Yoga and Water Aerobics. I do look attractive and healthier. Simultaneously, my high school aged self was muttering responses to the compliments like: "What do they want?"; "Why are they saying that?"; or, "What was wrong with the way I looked before?"
My partner David has been telling me for weeks that I look radiant and that my hairstyle is "sporty". It is easier to dismiss compliments from the ones you love most because , well, they love you. More than 10 people told me they liked my hair. I guess my hair must be cool now. Ironically, it has been a joke of mine for the last few years that as I continue to find my Femme identity, I am still not able to "Have a hairdo". I guess I'll have to retire that conversation.

Upon reflection, I find that there have been many instances in my life when I have " fallen into apotheosis". Usually this synchronizes with when I have "fallen in Love". Hmm, really? Oh yes, of course, you betcha'. There are also times when I have a new concept or idea and I am certain this idea is the center of the Universe or can explain all things. In fact I made an art piece for Bruce Nealley in 1998 called Apotheosis when I realized I had once again left the center of my being to adore and idolize another human. Apotheosis. It is tempting to move the location of the divine out and away from your own core. So much easier to see love in another. So much easier to worship at an altar outside of the SELF. I need constant reminders to build my life around the core of myself. The Divine inside of me is the relationship that needs tending to when I am out of balance. It is just too easy to make another person your god and then beat them up because you are worshipping them. Ya Dig what I mean?
I also think that I frequently lapse into asking another person to fill spaces and do things for me that are not appropriate for another person to do for me. David Schnarch calls this being other- referenced. In his world the ideal is to be self-referenced. Being as spiritual as I am I sometimes prefer SELF-referenced or SELF centered as in "centered in SELF". For example, I say this every now and again to a counseling client or friend in need: Is it really ethical to ask another person to do something for you that you are not willing to do for yourself? I mean why should I ask Ms. X to love me when I am not willing to love myself. It is my job to "get right with the gods" and mend my relationship with the SELF and the Universe ( all that is). Why would I ask another person to do that for me? That's an inside job. Rainer Maria Rilke is a great writer to turn to to help explore these ideas. A book of his essays and poems called "On Love and other Difficulties" is very helpful for ordering yourself and preparing for "the work of love"

Saturday evenings during the Wisdom Weekend intensives there is always some sort of social event. Social events are opportunities to expand our network of conversations and to participate in our originating circles and to acknowledge and appreciate those in our lives who "give us our lives" by simply being in our lives. During the social events, in fact during every Landmark event, there is a time for Sharing. This means people get up to the microphone and talk about what has been happening in their lives. The ways of thinking and speaking given in Landmark Education are different from our common culture and definitely have an impact. Sometimes people have breakdowns and some times people have breakthroughs, these two perspectives are usually hot on the heels of each other.

On Saturday I was asked to share "What has the Wisdom Course given me". I told everyone present the story of "How I manifested my trip to Amsterdam" which you can read here as my November 8th blog post. I also told them a lot of other stuff which I will post here under a separate title soon. After my share several people came up to tell me how inspired and awed they were by my sharing. The next day more people said the same. One person in particular said that their guest who had never been to any Landmark events before asked " Do you think that's really true what she said about going to Amsterdam?". I laughed and realized that to some people, maybe a lot of people, my story could seem like a fairy tale. It may occur to people that I am lying or telling a made up story.
Frequently, when people hear or see something that is beyond their common experience they will either exalt or demonize the person or event. We are constantly , conditioned by our dualistic uber culture, evaluating all experience as if it could only belong in one of two boxes 1) good
2) bad. We are trained to be so judgemental that our ability to even listen to another person or experience life itself, is eclipsed by our brain making judgements and comparisons: "Is that true?" "Do I believe that?" "Did that just happen?" Our squirrel brains natter on creating a filter between ourselves and life itself. Good/Bad Male/Female Light/Dark Matter/Light it just goes on and on.
False dichotomy as my over educated feminist soaked brain is fond of spewing out. Kate Borenstein taught me to use a more easily digested phrase "either/or" choices. Realize that when you can only think of two options in a situation that you are living in the illusion of dualism. There are always more than two options, there is always more than two of anything. Think about that for a minute, okay?

Daimon is the origin or root word for the word Demon (etymological source: Latin. daemon or daemonium, Greek. daimonion:a guardian spirit). Daimon originally referred to a spirit of place that protected or guarded that place. As history rolled over the Greek and Latin cultures and brought the great dualistic and father idolizing religions into prominence, spirits of place were eclipsed by the " one true god". Daimons became demons and the animate world became an empty world of things, spiritless objects. Demons are now evil spirits. To demonize someone is to project evil intent or assign an evil essence to a person

So commonly when we are in the presence of a new person or new experience that challenges our knowledge base, ( the knowledge we had up until exposure to that new person or event), we are tempted to either elevate or denigrate that person or event. They are either a god of some kind, or a demon of some kind. Immediately our tendency to judge and evaluate comes into play and we compare ourselves to the person or event. " I can't do that", "I can do better than that". "That's good", "That's bad!" In a very simplistic either or culture this might become: "They are like god", "They are like the devil". we then look for ways to justify the judgemetn we have made.

"When I am good: Apotheosis occurs and when I am bad, I'm a demon".
Okay so what? What's with all the definitions and mini history lessons already?

Okay, I'll tell you, I'm trying to get to the point but it takes a little background.

When I was studying Ghandi in my peace studies class in Stephens College ( yes, 1981!), I really did not like Ghandi. I was a pleasure seeking pagan feminist. He was a body aviodant spiritual devotee to deprivation who held his wife responsible for his own lustful impulses. I had a lot of judgement as a 20 year old anarcho-feminist "should". I had to write a paper on how Ghandi was relevant to me. I had a hell of a time and i fought within myself fiercely to find a way to relate to this guy. I mean lots of dudes do great works socially but are complete demons in their personal lives, right? So I read and reread his biography and finally there was a quote from him in the introduction that gave me a "eureka!" moment. I just returned from an hour long web search but failed to find the exact quote I am looking for.
The intent and one possible meaning of the quote is: Ghandi says , "Do not call me Mahatma, Saint" or other revered titles, for when you do you remove from yourself the responsibility to find your own Truth and live it. In "getting" this quote I realized that I had been so busy judging and comparing myself to him, that I was not able to even see who he had been. Why did Ghandi's greatness threaten me so? Why was I so alarmed by his legacy that I had to demonize him? The paper I wrote was about this realization and my new understanding that Ghandi's life called me to be present to my own life. I saw that I had a responsibility to determine my own Truth. I saw I had a responsibility to examine the values that underpinned my actions. I saw that I must think critically and become a self-created individual.

My own thinking about experiences where it becomes clear that people are deifying me is 1) they are not seeing me as I am 2) they do not want to or know how to do the work necessary for them to see me as I am. 3) they do not want to or know how to do the work necessary for them to see themselves as divine 4) I am obsessively fixated on turning everything into a philosophical situation and I need to go take a nap. Perhaps they are not experiencing their own Immanence ( inner divinity/Life force). Perhaps they have never known or developed skills that would allow them to access Immanence. If I have an emotional investment in being close to the person and I have the free attention and energy to engage them, I will try to redirect their judgemental behavior towards self-reflection on self acceptance and worthiness. A lot of the time I am too tired or caught up in myself to do provide such guidance .

Usually when people are demonizing me, I have no access to them. The people who demonize me do so in their heads , in a monologue or they gossip about it with others and I never hear about it first hand. Which is fine. I may feel it in their energy fields but I do not have to deal with it on a 3-D level. In my recent experience, when people who are uncomfortable about my level of free self-expression and power tell me that they are aware they are demonizing me, we then have a conversation that builds intimacy and connection.

In my relationships with Connie and David, there is a lot of apotheosis and demonization. Actually, come to think of it, in most relationships, intimate or friendly or only acquaintances... Hmmm... Well, I need to stop writing now and go tend to physical things like eating. I hopeto have provoked you in some way! Blessings, Teri

A burlesque queen from the Land of OZ

Here are some of the pictures David took of me at the Wet Spot ( Sex Positive Community Center's) Halloween party on Sunday Oct 29th. I am wearing a costume that my friend Rose created; she calls it "what a burlesque dancer would look like in the Land Of Oz". The blue nipples blink on and off when you flick them! I had a good time even though I was tired from teaching the "Taste of Kink" workshop with Connie and Mistress Marry from 5-7pm. Can you believe it only took me 15 min. to put on the makeup and rhinestones!

How I manifested my trip to Amsterdam

Feel free to check out my website at www.terrafire.org

One of my new conversations in March 2006 became, " I am an international sexologist and I am going to teach in Amsterdam in November". At the time I did not know anyone who lived in Amsterdam. The only connection I had was an acquaintance named Ingrid who is Dutch and goes home every now and then. In July I received a phone call from a woman in charge of a Lesbian leather organization ( called the Wild Side ) in Amsterdam and she asked me to come and teach for them. How did I make this leap and cause my conversation to physically manifest? Through my originating circle and the network of conversations.

An originating circle is the circle of people who you come into contact with and have conversations with at least once a month. The network of conversations is the interconnected web of all originating circles. So while I may not be in conversation with my best friend's partner, that friend's partner influences me and I influence them through the fact that the best friend has conversation with both of us. My best friend and I are in each other's originating circles. My best friend's partner is in my secondary circle and on it goes ad finitum, ad nauseum. The network of conversations contains everything you may want or need. My network of conversations included people who live in Amsterdam and want to learn what I have to teach. While I did not know people directly, through conversation, I accessed people who knew people, who knew people in Amsterdam. Through interconnected originating circles, conversation created a connection. People in Amsterdam heard about my website and the classes I teach. My work was recommended and praised to them. They called me to see when and If I could teach for them.

What kind of conversation is required to achieve this kind of result? Generative conversation. Conversation that creates is made of declarations and definitions. This is different from story telling and representational speech. So a declaration is " I am an international sexologist and I am going to teach in Amsterdam in November". A story would be: "I've always wanted to go to Amsterdam but it costs to much and I really don't like planes, besides no one in Amsterdam knows about me so they won't be interested in my counseling and classes." In the story, I cannot have what I want and I am powerless. In the declaration I am what I want. In the declaration, I am being what I want to have.

At this time next week ( literally 7 days from now at 10:50pm) I am going to be in a plane headed to Amsterdam. I am taking one of my best friends "Jimbo", Jim Barker with me. We are going to have a kick ass marvelous time. I will attend the Wisdom Weekend #5 which will be a repeat of the weekend I am doing here in Seattle on Nov 10-12th. I will be teaching my "Sexy Body! Sexy Mind! class to the leather dykes of Wild Side at the gay and lesbian center of Amsterdam.
This happened because I decided to share a declarative conversation with everyone I spoke to at least once a month. I found out that many of the people I know had been to or lived in or knew someone who lived in Amsterdam. It really is a small intensely interconnected world. If you want something, talk about it as if you already have it. Believe in your power to obtain it and it is yours.

I have learned an immense amount of useful skills and techniques while taking the Landmark Wisdom Course. I registered for this course last November 15th. The first of 5 weekend intensives was March 18th. The last is this weekend November 10-12th. My life has dramatically improved because of this course. One of the most helpful and trans formative distinctions I have learned from Wisdom is the power of conversations. Oh you may be wondering "What is Landmark?" www.landmarkeducation.com

Landmark education is a personal growth and training organization. I took my 1st weekend intensive with them, known as The Forum the last weekend of July 2005. I took the 2nd intensive The Advance Course, last December. On Halloween weekend 2005 I went with my dear friend Allena Gabosch ( who got me into Landmark in the first place ) to a social event called The Wisdom Course Social. What happened that night and how I ended up in the Wisdom Course is another story, which I will hopefully get around to telling you later. Wisdom is a separate but related division of Landmark. Anyone who would like to join me this Saturday Nov. 11th at the Landmark education center on 35th and Phinney Ave. in Fremont is welcome. We will be having a conversation from 6-8pm about acknowledgement and appreciation. We will sit in small groups of 6 people and ask and answer questions. THe first question is "Who do you say that I am?" Then from 8-? ( usually about 10pm) The social gathering is called the World Wisdom Festival. This event was my idea. Each Wisdom social group ( there are about 8). will have their own booth where people can have an experience that focuses on Art, Spirit and Community. I will be helping people disappear conversations by writing what they no longer wish to say on a piece of flashpaper and burning it. Then I will sit with people and give them a "rock of Being" to remind them to breathe, stay in their body and "be". this is the whole be a human being not a human doing concept. This is going to be fun. Feel free to show up call me if you need more information.

What is the TerraFire Academy of Aphrodisiacal Living?

What is the TerraFire Academy of Aphrodisiacal Living?

TerraFire

Once, a long time ago when I was still in my twenties, I had to choose a magical name for myself. People were frequently uncomfortable with my level of directness and self-confidence. I joked that people were “Teri-fied” of me, (a play off my first name), Then I decided to adopt this as a name I used in pagan contexts but changed it to TerraFire so that it invoked an image used in grounding meditations; the fire at the center of the living earth. Several years later, I became a ceramic artist and used the name TerraFire Arts when I sold my work. So TerraFire is my Holy self-created name.

Academy

Frequently, as people are getting to know me, they comment on how much they learn by being in my presence. I believe this is due to the fact that I very consciously live outside the dictates of the mainstream culture. I have nicknamed this culture the “weenie white boy world”. I do my best to create an alternative living space, which I carry around in my own energy field. I have created my own system of ethics and morality to accompany the following identities which I embody: anarcho-feminist, polyamorous “bachelorette”, Wiccan, pagan, sexologist, performance poet, philosopher, queer, kinky, pansexual, hedonist, pleasure activist, sacred whore, temple priestess, practitioner of sex magick. The fact of my embodying all of these personas/perspectives, is what causes others to learn in my presence. I received repeated feedback that hanging out with me is educational. Thus, my life is a performance art that instructs, in short, an academy

Aphrodisiacal Living

My spiritual teacher and Wiccan Elder Pat Ray gave me the book “Pagan Meditations” by Ginette Paris in 1993. In this book Paris shares her concepts regarding the creation of an Aphrodisiacal culture and context. Aphrodisiacal being defined as: the sexual perspectives and desires of a mature sex-positive, self-loving woman who understands her own nature as inherently Divine. Paris juxtaposed this concept to the current polarized notions of sexual contexts being either Erotic or Pornographic. She explains that the archetype and sexual perspective of Eros is that of a teenage boy who runs about chaotically striking people with the arrows of love/lust, sitting back to laugh at the results. She explains that the etiology of the word pornography translates as “ the writing of prostitutes”. I wish to be clear that I do not personally have any negative associations with this word or the practitioners of this ancient profession. The dominant culture, however, continues to revile prostitution and to a large extent demand it remain a criminal “offense”.

Aphrodisiacal is specifically a visionary feminist concept and as such provides the context for profound transformational political and personal sexual experiences.

My concept of Aphrodisiacal Culture stands in ideological opposition to the patriarchal concepts and subcultures of: swinging, wife swapping, orgies, and sexual infidelity (this being non-consensual sexual acts outside of committed monogamous coupling agreements). The problem of translating this concept and co-creating a temporary subculture that enacts its ethics; remains a major struggle in my ongoing attempts to create Aphrodisiacal experiences with others.

In my opinion, being raised in the mainstream American culture provides social indoctrination that predisposes people to have experiences of oppression, exploitation, and sexual repression. Relationship role models are based on non-consensual domination and submission. This socialization combines with people’s lack of positive and wide ranging sexual experience, lack of sexual self-esteem and a failure to understand the concept of Immanence to create confusion about and misunderstanding of Aphrodisiacal events. Considering all of this it has been no small miracle that the majority of people who have attended my academy have reported positive experiences.

The best way to increase people’s ability to understand Aphrodisiacal subculture is to educate them about its origins and provide them with personal experiences within facilitated Aphrodisiacal contexts. My ongoing experiences and education as a counselor and sexologist continue to inform my understanding of and ability to create Aphrodisiacal culture. A few of the goals of the TerraFire Academy of Aphrodisiacal Living are a) providing sexual healing, b) creating contexts that help people experience the divine; in themselves and others, c) increasing peoples capacity for pleasure, d) increasing people’s sexual self-esteem and sexual etiquette skills and e) creating sex positive culture that is respectful and empowering for all people.

Brief history of me: Part 1 of my amazing life

A lot of people who are just getting to know me will make a comment like: "Wow, you have an exciting life", or " I'll bet you're never bored". I think they are right. I am often deeply moved by the realization of how unique, dynamic and pleasure focused my life is. I frequently say " I love my amazing life!". In fact, I put that phrase on my cell phone so that it shows on the screen whenever I turn my phone on. I make an effort to stay in a place of gratitude and wonder about my life. I make an effort to give the loving friends and partners I have appreciations regularly.

What you may ask, is so special about my life?
Well, let's start with my work. I am an international sex educator and counselor who specializing in creating sex positive adult education. What does that mean and why do I do it?

Let's start with Why I created the TerraFire Academy of Aphrodisiacal Living.

A BRIEF HISTORY OF ME (ages 26-Now 44)
Once upon a time I was a confused young woman who had a lot of sex in a very compulsive and sometimes self-demeaning way. In untangling the web of this behavior I discovered ( as so many many people do), a history of traumatic childhood, teenage and young adult sexual experiences.
In the process of healing these wounds, I realized that sexual healing was a key component of being a healthy functional adult. A key component of my healing was meeting and eventually marrying an enlightened man dedicated to critically analyzing gender roles. Larry Scott Williams was also a peace studies major and sociologist. Through his loving behavior I came to see myself as love-able and was able to separate sexual desirability and love.

I pursued a higher education hoping to help others.
I received a Master's degree in Social Work (MSW) from the University of Missouri in Columbia Missouri at the age of 26 ( 1988). I worked with "chronically mentally ill" adults ( whatever mental illness is. I mean what is ill and where is your "mental" we are so ignorant of brain chemistry and how moods function!). In any case, I learned a lot about psychology for several years.
I started an intentional community in 1990 with 8 others. We called it DUMA and I lived there for 2 years. While I had been a witch since my first exposure to that spirituality in 1981,I met an amazing Wiccan elder and teacher named Pat Ray/Redwing in 1991.
I stopped doing social work in summer 1992 and started working on a a woman-centered coffeehouse in 1993 with my then business partner Dawn Lamp. We called it Baba Yaga's Dream and sold magazines, rubber stamps, local art, sex toys and gifts. We had a lot of folk musicians at the beginnings of their careers perform there, like Dar Williams and Jewel. I learned a lot about running a small business, budgeting, taxes etc...I learned a lot about social behavior in the environmental, neo-hippy, gay, lesbian and queer subcultures of Eugene, Oregon. After leaving DUMA and having Baba Yaga's fail financially, I got pretty discouraged about building community.

How I came upon the idea of Aphrodisiacal contexts and learned to develop it.
While still running Baba's I started a series of salon discussion evenings.
Pat Ray gave me the book "Pagan Meditations" which introduced me to the concept of Aphrodisiacal and I decided to hold an entire series of salons just on the concept of women and sexuality. At the first salon I held a woman named Caledonia came and explained that she was a devotee of the goddess Aphrodite and she had been for years. She explained that this meant she would be of sexual service to anyone who presented themselves as in need. I found this fascinating. At first I thought she was possibly hurting herself. She basically explained the concept of what I now call Transpersonal sex ( more about this term in future entries).
I also began attending The Aquarian Tabernacle Church Spring Mysteries Festival. At this festival, Sylvan Grove Coven created an Aphrodite Temple and held Aphrodite Rituals, (I will also go into detail about these in the future, I promise). These events were sex magick rituals.
Before these experiences I had seen Aphrodite as an unachievable icon of femininity. I resented her archetype and belittled it by putting her in the dumb blonde catagory. After this education I came to see that one of her magickal powers is to give humans the ability to see and experience the Divine through sex with others. When I am having Aphrodisiacal sex it is an ego less merging with other divine beings that expands me and sends ecstasy in all directions.

Back in Mundane land:I started making ceramics and really focusing on my path as a Wiccan Priestess in 1995.
I started a public Wiccan Tradition with my friends Cathy Chandler and Caledonia Crossman: we called it Cauldron of Changes. I learned a lot about Wicca, paganism, incense making, magickal tools, energy work and sex magick. Spent some time in the O.T.O. with ceremonial magicians.

In 1995 I also started TerraFire Arts, mainly selling at the Eugene Saturday Market. I sold ceramic jewelry and idols focusing on Images of the Goddess. I learned a lot about ceramics, art marketing and the Circle of hands collective art gallery. At this time I also started taking classes and eventually training to teach Holistic Peer Counseling. Wahaba Heartsun was my teacher and mentor. I started teaching this system of peer counseling based on re-evaluation counseling beliefs in 1997. My marriage started to unravel due to a series of polyamorous relationships and the changes in my beliefs. I started teaching and counseling as my main form of income in 1999. I attended the WTO in November 1999. I made the long awaited move to Seattle in March 2000.

I've written a lot here and I will continue with what is an international sex positive adult educator and counselor.